Up at dawn email

I found this pic on FaceBook last night, It is by Marc Chagall, his cover for Ballet Russe

Hi Jan

I actually slept last night.

Sleeping thru the night is still a new thing for me, it didn't start to happen till last week and it means I wake up so relaxed in the morning.

I think I knew this “transformation thingy” was really over when I began to sleep thru the night.

Because it was so comfortable and comforting to sleep thru the night, instead of up every half hour.

Dawn is starting now. It means a light indigo light is coming in from the East and the full moon is still shining in my West window.

First bird chirped in its nest.

I woke up optimistic about life which is a nice way to wake up.

I really can't remember when I last had that feeling. It may be a few years.

It sure feels nice to wake up relaxed and happy and optimistic about life. Even if it doesn't last. Ever since 2013 began my life bounces from one extreme to the other just like our weather has been doing.

But maybe this time of transformation (the past 8 weeks) is ending. Hahaha we are now transformed. And it means we can start to have happy days again too.

An hour later

The beautiful morning has just started

It is so much fun seeing the big pigeons all arrive

Sitting on my telephone wire

I love it when the birds arrive in my backyard

It is so much fun watching them

O the sun must have risen above mountains because sunlight is now splashing into my view out west window

O the color and the beauty

The  bright light in Tucson turns it into paradise.

I wish you and Harry a lovely day.

Love Annie

Later the same day  5 PM

Hi Jan

This afternoon I got discouraged. Then I read the Letter from God for today which I had printed up this morning. It overjoyed me when I read it this morning.

I had it in my backyard to read it again. After I realized I was discouraged I did read it again.

All about the amazing absolutely wonderful experience that will happen to all of us.

So then I thought “I may as well believe it. The girl who let herself be tricked into believing the mass awakening would actually happen may as well let herself be tricked into believing this amazingly wonderful experience will inevitably happen to all of us.”

LOL I never used to be sarcastic about all this spiritual stuff but as my Higher Self pointed out the other day “It was a let down for you that the mass awakening did not happen.”

Love Annie
4 days later Sunday March 3rd   
Hi Jan

It is 5 pm and I have not fallen down the rabbit hole yet.

Ever since the nights turned freezing, because heat does not reach my bedroom

I have been sleeping in what was Billy's tool room. There is a little futon couch in there and it is right by the furnace

And afternoon sun comes in that window.

But last night was mild, so this afternoon I went to my bedroom where my TV is for the first time in long time.

It was so ice cold in there for past 2 months I would not step one foot in it.

I remade the bed so the violet comforter was on top, not the brown one

I thought it will lift my spirits to see the pretty light violet

And I even got under the covers in front of the TV to try it out.

The new TV, I never got to watch it, that is when the nights turned ice cold

It has been on all this time tuned to the old movie station

I didn't turn the sound back on but I did watch the movie which was playing for an hour.

I found it comforting watching faces on TV again. There was something so isolated about all that time in bed with just my thoughts.

I did notice yesterday evening (I was still on futon couch in tool room) that I dealt with my bad memories much better. They had been huge problem for me for 2 months. I would get very upset.

But last evening I applied new age thinking to them instant they arose. "It never happened, I was asleep and dreaming and when I wake up in paradise I will realize it never happened."

We'll see. Maybe nipping it in the bud is the trick for me. For two months I fell down the rabbit hole each time they came into my mind.

Now I am wondering if they are coming to the surface for us so much to be released?

It sure would be wonderful miracle for me if I could be rid of my bad memories.

So how did your day go today?

Love Anne