today's email to Les Girls.. (Back in Circulation)

Painting by Boris Klementyev

I am in a little email group with girls I was in womens lib with back in the Sixties.  We were young wild activists then.  Now we are just girls sharing our lives with each other now.  I enjoy it very much

Below is the email I just wrote them.  There are only 5 of us now, everyone else dropped out.   But I like it and I appreciate it.

email  Friday afternoon, February 8, 2013

The wind has been blowing all day, a small wind, but still strong and persistent. There is determination there. It has been cloudy and overcast all day, and actually softly warm when the wind doesn't blow, but the wind is always blowing.

It's almost as if it is blowing something in, but I have no idea what. The weather forecast has been alarming Tucsonans who love to be warm, that this weekend the days will be cold. But ever since everything went wicky wacky for past month, I no longer believe the weather forecast has the grip on anything either.

I think it is totally unknown what the weather will be like this weekend. I think everything about the weather is unknown area now. That we are in the new world now, and nothing can be predicted, because nothing is as it was.

I am grateful today was not being stopped by the cops, not having to go down to DMV and take the written test again.

When Jim called to take me swimming he suggested we do some driving first. I thought it was a great idea. I was afraid I had taken against driving after my recent bad experiences, so I was curious how I would feel behind the wheel again. I said "OK but just in my own neighborhood."

It did feel good and it did all come back to me. And it was nice to be relaxed behind the wheel and enjoying it. And kibitzing with Jim as I drove.

It took a while for my happiness to come back, it may be a while before I feel so merry and light again, I had such a big encounter with the State.

LOL I am a little bubbling brook that a lot of sludge got poured into suddenly out of nowhere.

But I guess these things are good for us because they force us to push back. The bubbling brook has to try harder to go on its way, so there is renewed effort. I woke up thinking it is time for me to email my friends again. Other than emailing with our little group I have not emailed a soul since my troubles began on Christmas morning.

I guess today I decided to get back in circulation. I emailed my big cousin, my little brother, and my friends from the public swim pools, and told them about my cop adventure and taking the written test again.

And I emailed Mimi my friend from my internet news forums.

And I emailed Bill's sister in San Diego too.

Most of my friends and relatives are too busy with their own lives to bother about me, altho Mimi always responds which is a treat. So you understand why I appreciate our email group so much.

But still it feels good to be back in circulation again, even if only Mimi responds to my emails. I guess it's called touching base.

It makes me feel like I have my life back, which I haven't since Christmas and all the changes happened.

I still don't believe there is any way life can can go back to how it was, I think the new world is here, but I did connect with 3 of my former boyfriends, and I am curious to see if any of those friendships do bloom. It seems logical there should be some new ingredients in my life now, but really and truly I have no idea.

It is all an unknown to me

I did kid around a lot with Nancy in the swim pool and lifeguard John this morning, and it is the first time since Christmas that I was relaxed enuf to want to kid around again. So maybe I am lightening up.

All my love to all of you

I wish you a great evening

Love Annie