Stormy day in Tucson

I love this drawing by my friend Helen Kritzler, I love the chickens

It is 8 in the morning. Altho I have been up since 6 am. The new thing is I am sleeping regularly now, actually sleeping thru the night.

Instead of up every hour. For the past month my nights have been as intense as my days. Very similar. So many intense thoughts.

But for the past 3 nights, it has been like a normal night's sleep. I sleep thru the night and my dreams are not as intense, they are normal dreams.

It has made the nights more relaxing for me now that I sleep normally during them. And I wake up more relaxed too.

Maybe that strange period is blowing out. I am still convinced it all had a purpose for me and accomplished a lot but I have no idea what its purpose was and what it accomplished.

Altho I have a vague feeling I am not the same person I was before it started. Or as if I was mountain climbing.

It does seem that I look out at things from a different ridge now. I am at a different place in the mountain. And the view is a little more expansive. It's as if I don't see things as close up as I did before. The view takes in other things.

Yesterday morning I stepped out the front door to take out the trash and was greeted by the most beautiful golden sun I ever saw. And spring time was in the air.

It was heaven.

Now I woke up to dark cloudy overcast. I had thought weather on the desert never changed.

When I first moved here from NYC I still had the habit of looking out the window when I woke up to see what kind of day it was.

But when that whole first month was gloriously beautiful I realized the desert is not a place of changeable weather.

Maybe because NYC is on the ocean every day is different weather.

But ever since Christmas every day is totally different weather here. Not only from sunny to cloudy, but that whole week of sub freezing cold.

And even when it is bright and sunny now, sometimes I wake up to frost on everything, and cold wind blowing all day.

Yet yesterday I lounged in warm sunshine in yard all day long.

And today is stormy skies.

Altho I see out my west window one patch of blue to the west. Altho dark rain filled clouds to the north.

I don't understand why our weather is suddenly so changeable. Perhaps the earth herself is in the midst of going thru changes too. Hahaha she is rising up to a higher level.

I wish you all a wonderful Wednesday

I love you

Annie