email about seeing old friends..

Macaws in flight, nice pic I found on FaceBook

March 19   

It is Tuesday, about an hour before sunset starts.

I had such an unusual day today, totally out of the expected. But it is now slightly over a week since I got out of bed after my big transition and joined the world again.

And nothing is she same as it was before. Even when it seems the same, it is all subtly different. Because my attitudes, thinking and perception have all slightly shifted.

Moods seem different too. The other day my mood started to sink, and then I read a friend's email of his good news about his day, and it gave me such a lift, it propelled me back into happiness.

It's as if just a feather of joy, can lift up a whole mood which had been sinking for past 2 hours.

And the other thing, I don't know if it is bigger than the first two, but it is more dramatic.

Is that unusual experiences are starting to come into my life.

They seem to center around (so far) unusual connections with people from my distant past, whether I ever knew them in my past, but it turned out they are exactly my age and lived around the corner from me during grade school.

Or the little boy who was my boyfriend in nursery school and we have not seen each other since.

It's like it all starts on email. Finding each other on FaceBook.

And the next thing I know it's like a picture in a pop-out book.

Just when I am used to it being an email thingy, it starts to pop out into my Tucson life.

That is a very big change for a girl who is used to everything being on email.

Whether I will actually see any of these people face-to-face, I have no idea, but it is huge change for me that it is being talked about on email.

Because the idea that I might see them has entered my mind, and it is a huge idea. The idea is so huge to me and comes as such a surprise.

But maybe this is the time we connect up again with everyone from our past. I think Helen’s Higher Self told her something like that.

And isn't that what Peggy is doing at her reunion now. She said it is the 55th college reunion, but the first one she is going to.

All I can say is a lot of "out of the blue" stuff seems to be happening in my life now.

It all knocks me for a loop at first, I am so used to my life where nothing happens at all.

But I can see why it is a good thing. It pushes me into different situations, different circumstances.

If I am going to meet them face-to-face I have to think about them in a new way. Integrate them with where my mind and my life are now.

Maybe when they live far away and are from a whole different time in your life and it is just email, it is just about being amiable.

But if you are going to meet them at a restaurant, or they will visit you when they are in town, then you have to take away all distance in time and space.

You have to get really close to them in your mind, as close as you are to your closest friends, because how else can you enjoy being with them.

What I really want, I wonder if it is possible? Is to bring them so close in my mind, that they become as familiar as the people I see every day during my daily routines.

The girls in the pool, the lifeguards, the girls who work at the desk at the Y, Jim and Frank.

The people who make up my daily life.

That is really why I need time to prepare for my lunch date or visit or whatever.

I need time to be close to them in my mind.

Love and kisses, Annie